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Final Ukraine Entry: 9/5/23

9/5/2023

Unfortunately one week into my visit in Ukraine the company managing my website decided to block inputs coming from Ukraine, so I was unable to continue this blog.

In this last entry, now that I'm home, I'll sum up my impressions for those of you who are interested.

Some of you expressed concern after reading of a missile strike that hit Lviv at right about the time I stopped writing. Fortunately in Lviv no one was hurt though I did hear the explosion from my hotel.

In the city of Poltava that same day the Russians sent one wave of missiles that injured many people, then another wave to the exact same location 45 minutes later, timed to kill and injure as many of the first responders on the scene as possible.

I learned over my time in Ukraine that this is how the Russians have consistently operated in this war. I heard many stories directly from Ukrainians about what they or family members have experienced in the occupied parts of Ukraine: tortures, rapes, murders and kidnapping of children (apparently in the thousands) sent to remote locations in Russia who will grow up thinking that they are Russian, with no connection to their Ukrainian families and culture. I heard about Ukrainian soldiers captured by the Russians who were castrated before being returned to Ukraine. I was told about an 11 year-old girl in Russia whose art teacher gave her class the assignment to paint a scene about the war. The girl painted one person standing under a Russian flag, another under a Ukrainian flag with a rainbow linking the two and the words: "No more bombs." When her teacher saw what this girl had painted she notified the school authorities who notified the police, who notified the FSB (KGB). Her father was put in prison for 10 years and the girl was sent to an orphanage. This level of brutality is how Putin's government treats any opposition---in Russia or anywhere else..

The Lviv Frontline Kitchen where volunteers from all over the world gather to process and package food sent to supplement the meager rations given to troops on the front.

My time in Ukraine ended up being an experience in values clarification, seeing what is essential and what's not. I worked primarily with children who were refugees from the eastern cities: Kharkiv, Mariupol, Donetsk, Poltava, Zaporizhia. Everything that most of these children knew is now gone: homes, schools, parks, and many of their family members. Ironically, for historical reasons, most of them speak Russians, since the eastern half of Ukraine has long been more firmly under Russian control than the Western half. But though these children are linguistically Russian, they have no love for Russia.

One of the children from the refugee shelter during a finger-painting class.

Two girls participating in a song camp listening to a recording of their voices...

But, more importantly than their trauma, I saw in these children and the Ukrainian people a remarkable resilience. In almost all the interactions I had with Ukrainians, they were generous and polite and expressed gratitude that I was there. As I wrote in an earlier blog, the first Ukrainian person I spoke with on the bus from Budapest to Lviv was a ballroom dance instructor who told me about how the war has affected her and her family, in both Ukraine and Russia. I'll never forget her words that "War is horrible, but there are some things that are worse than war." As I've pondered these words I've realized how much I have taken for granted as an American. For all our challenges here in the U.S. most of us don't yet have to worry about being imprisoned or tortured if we speak our minds.

My time in Ukraine confirmed my impression that the outcome of the war being fought there will deeply affect us here in the U.S.. I'm aware that the U.S., too has invaded many countries and left massive destruction in its wake. That there are many ways that we as a country have failed to live up to our ideals. And that it's easy after just a month of travel and research to come up with simplistic and incomplete perspectives.

But watching and listening to the people I met in Ukraine led me to conclude, as hesitant as I am to put things in absolutes, that theirs is a war for freedom and democracy against a totalitarian, criminal state that is threatened by that freedom. And that the same conflict between totalitarianism and democracy is playing out here in the U.S. and around the world as well. And that confronting those totalitarian forces here in the U.S. supports the Ukrainians to do the same there, while supporting the Ukrainians in their fight also helps us in our fight here.

Chart shared by one of the Front Line Kitchen volunteers about how Russian disinformation warfare works in Ukraine.

I've come to realize how naive U.S. foreign policy toward Russia has been over the past 30 years. I've been forced to acknowledge that both Democrat and Republican presidents have appeased Vladimir Putin in ways that have encouraged him to think he could invade Georgia in 2008, then eastern Ukraine and Crimea in 2014, then all of Ukraine in 2022 with impunity. And I believe, based on conversations and reading about recent Russian history, that Putin will continue his war of imperial ambition until he is stopped. The only question, in my mind, is whether we'll help the Ukrainians enough to stop him there in Ukraine or if he'll continue with his depredations on into the rest of Europe and the world, using the various forms of "hybrid warfare" that his regime has perfected over the past 20 years.

I'll close by again quoting the dance instructor who was the first person I talked to in Ukraine, who said, "As terrible as war is, it can also tear down old ways of being and allow the growth of something new and better; it can bring change and growth and allow transformation." My hope is that we in the U.S. can learn from this time of conflict in our world, our country and our individual lives, discern the change and transformation that life is asking of us and take those steps without needing to endure the immense suffering, death and destruction that are now afflicting Ukraine.

One of the shelters in Lviv where refugees from the east are living.

One of the many beautiful churches of Lviv.

Many of you have asked about trustworthy charities doing good work on the ground in Ukraine. Here are a few that I had personal experience with and can recommend:

Lviv Front Line Kitchen: processing and delivering nutritious dehydrated food to soldiers and people in the war zones of Ukraine; info here;
Make It Possible Ukraine: organization I worked with most: helping refugee children with education, empowerment and enrichment: info here;
ArtHub Odessa: creating cultural events in the beleaguered city of Odessa to raise morale and promote solidarity: https://www.facebook.com/arthub.odessa

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August 11th, 2023

8/11/2023

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Tonight I'd like to just share with you some of the beauty of Lviv, which is considered one of the most beautiful, traditional European (vs. ugly modernist Soviet) cities of Ukraine.

And here's a painting that my unbelievably gifted friend, Lize Kruger did after the atrocities in Mariupol, simply entitled "Ukrainian Mother."

Good night, all.
Take good care of yourselves.
Thanks for your prayers.

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Lviv - Day 5 (8/10)

8/10/2023

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This morning I attended a service for 2 soldiers from Lviv who were killed days ago. The Church of the Most Holy Apostles Peter and Paul, where these services are held, was filled with weeping women, grim-faced men, and both male and female soldiers. Here's a picture of the pre-funeral service held in the church.

Here's a picture of the coffins being carried into the church for the service.

Afterward I found my friend, Lise. outside the church, with tears streaming down her cheeks. I asked her to come have a coffee with me and we went to a nearby cafe, where tourists around us chatted and laughed, oblivious to what had just happened 3 blocks away.

Here's a pic of Lise with a special Ukrainian roll of toilet paper.....

I haven't been able to find a venue to offer acupuncture at, but Lise and I are volunteering at "Make It Possible Ukraine", a non-profit that gives a variety of enrichment experiences to children who've fled the war zones with their families (mostly mothers).

On Monday Lise led an art project of vision- boarding that allowed children to use various media to express their feelings about themselves, what they've been through, and what they hope for. I was assigned to sit with a 3 or 4-year old girl who had one of the most haunted expressions I've ever seen on a person's face. We traced the children's outlines on construction paper for them to fill with what seemed right to them. Then I just sat with her and held out a sheet of images till she pointed to one for me to cut out so she could glue it onto her outline.

The first image that she glued onto her paper, at the level of her face, was a tank.

It was a slow process, but when we finished she came over to me and hugged me.

The next day there were more boys in the program and I noticed how they often took things from the girls. So it was touching when a volunteer handed out potato chips and this little girl brought her chips over and set them on the table right next to me, looking up with a searching expression to confirm that I wouldn't let anyone take them away from her.

All the children in the program come and hug or shake hands with each of the volunteers when they arrive in and leave the classroom. It seems to me like I can feel what an effort it takes for them, with all the trauma they've experienced and the churn of volunteers arriving and departing, to do this, but there's a level of graciousness that I feel in them that I have rarely experienced in American children, an apparent confirmation that terrible things can bring out the best in us, as well as the worst.

I feel grateful to be here with the other men and women who felt called to come here from all over the world. And proud that there are so many of us from the U.S.

"Make It Possible Ukraine"'s website and donation page are here:
https://makeitpossibleua.org/

Here's a pic of the view from my hotel room window when I got back tonight.
More tomorrow.

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Lviv - Day 2

8/7/2023

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I know I said yesterday that I'd give a listing of NGOs I've encountered that are doing great work here, but while exploring Lviv this morning I came across this display of soldiers killed by the Russians after surrendering at the Azovstal steel plant in Mariupol. I couldn't help but think how much they look like lots of Americans I know, men and women I'd like to have had a chance to talk to and get to know.

Some of them were denied medical care for life-threatening injuries, some were tortured to death.

I hope you'll take a few minutes to really look at their faces and feel the hole that their deaths have made in their families and their country. And to hold them, their families and their country in your hearts.

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Ukraine Day 7

8/7/2023

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Lviv - Day 1

I arrived in Lviv after a 17-hour bus trip from Budapest that included four hours sitting at the border. Which seemed like a long time till till I heard stories of people sitting there for 2 days.

From the flat farmland of Eastern Hungary we climbed up through the Carpathian mountains and arrived in Lviv right at the midnight curfew.

The Ukrainian woman sitting next to me on the bus spoke English so I asked her about her experiences and perceptions.

First, I asked how supportive Ukrainian people are of the war and the president. She replied that people complain about various things but that the overwhelming majority support both the president and the way he's handling the war, and believe this is a fight for survival, as well as freedom. She summarized by saying, "War is horrible, but some things are worse than war."

I had been told the day before by someone I'd met in Budapest that the "Revolution of Dignity" in 2014 that provoked the first Russian invasion a few months later had been backed and financed by the CIA, so I asked her about that. She responded that the Revolution of Dignity had been a response to newly-elected prime minister Yanukovich breaking promises to sign an agreement with the EU and open Ukraine more to the world. Instead he canceled the agreement and tried to bind Ukraine more tightly to Russia. According to this woman he also immediately began enriching himself, his friends and his family from public coffers, leading to $70 billion being stolen from the Ukrainian government and sent abroad. She said it was the final straw when mostly young people went to the streets to protest and security forces loyal to Yanukovich killed dozens of them. At that point hundreds of thousands of people from all sides of the political spectrum flooded the streets and Yanukovich fled to Russia.

I told her I'd heard a lot about corruption in Ukraine and she said :"We inherited a corruption problem from being ruled by a corrupt Russian system. That problem is not resolved, but we've been working on it and we'll continue working."

I asked her about the relationship of the Ukrainian people to the Russian people and she said: "I'm a native Russian speaker. I have lots of family members in Russia and we speak all the time and they tell me they love me. But there are many things they cannot say or the police will knock on their door. And other people I know have family in Russia who no longer talk to them and blame Ukraine for starting this war. We have to teach our children that we need to be strong and to love and defend our country, but that we should try not to hate the Russians. But so many of us have suffered from this war that many people do."

Before we arrived in Lviv she helped me install the air raid app on my phone that notifies people here that an attack has been launched on a specific region and that they need to take shelter. A few minutes before we reached our destination a siren went off and the whole bus went silent. It took a few moments for me to realize that the sound was coming from my phone.
We realized that the app was set for notifications in the eastern part of the country and she re-set it for the Lviv region and it went silent.

Tomorrow I'll tell you about some of the people I've met in organizations that are working to help children, refugees and soldiers and to strengthen and heal their society.

In the meantime, here's a quote from this* Eliot Cohen article published recently in The Atlantic that sums up what I've heard from most of the people here that I've spoken to:

(Western/American officials) "forget what it means to have a fifth of your country occupied, or to know that a far bigger country is attempting, every night, to smash your power plants, blockade your ports, and destroy your crops. They are not holding in the forefront of their minds obliterated towns and mass graves. They do not know what it is to welcome back exchanged prisoners of war who have been castrated. Or to mourn old men and women murdered, or younger men and women tortured and raped. Or to worry frantically about thousands of children kidnapped. They forget that while a Western official’s sleep may be interrupted by a phone call or an alarm clock, a Ukrainian official’s sleep is more likely (and more often) interrupted by a siren or the crash of a missile slamming into an apartment block.

*https://www.theatlantic.com/international/archive/2023/08/ukraine-western-diplomacy/674920/?utm_source=copy-link&utm_medium=social&utm_campaign=share

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Ukraine Trip - Day 4

8/4/2023

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Resting a few days in Budapest and orienting myself before taking a bus to Ukraine on Sunday. Sightseeing and talking with friends has been fascinating and eye-opening.

Beauty---and tourists---are everywhere in most of the parts of Budapest that I have seen. Early 20th century houses mingle with massive, imperial structures on the bluffs overlooking the Danube that seem to recall the days of the Austro-Hungarian empire.

But talking with friends here I get the impression that Hungary, like the U.S., is increasingly polarized, with people on both sides of the Conservative/Liberal divide feeling under threat. The painful, disturbing past seems much more present here than I think it does for most people in the U.S., with the history of domination by other European powers memorialized in some of the monuments.

My impression is that this consciousness creates an unsettled relationship with the past: part "Make Hungary Great Again," symbolized by the the Prime Minister, Viktor Orbán and his far-right policies (and architecture) but also part deep unease at the ways that that mentality has played out in the past. I learned, for instance, that the Hungarian government allied itself with the Nazis in WWII, after having had huge swathes of its territory taken after WWI.

Two days ago a friend brought me to a monument here on the eastern bank of the Danube, erected to the thousands of Jewish and Roma (Gypsy) people who were rounded up by Hungarian fascists allied with the Nazis in 1944-45 and brought to the river bank. Here they were bayoneted and pushed into the river, where the current carried away their bodies. Beforehand they were forced to take off their shoes which were later sold by members of the militia who killed them.

The monument attached shoes made of iron to the marble blocks of the embankment.

In the past few years some of the shoes have been stolen and graffiti has appeared on some monuments to Roma victims, saying "Extinction of the Roma = Extinction of Crime."

Yesterday afternoon I was introduced to a Hungarian man and Ukrainian woman who very recently left Odessa as the bombing there intensified. It was awful to hear the woman's description of the terror she and her children experienced during the missile attacks. But what stood out most for me was the the man's description of the sense of fear and powerlessness he experienced just in traveling between Odessa and Budapest, passing through ex-Soviet countries. Whereas, in my experience, most (white) Americans have the impression that officials in the U.S. are there to serve us, I gather that many of the officials in these countries have a "post-Soviet" mentality of using their position to demonstrate the power they have over people who have to deal with them. His description of the fear and uncertainty evoked by officials like this who have just taken your passport and then sometimes take hours to return it as you sit on the border, waiting, was a good reminder to me of how much and how often I take the safety and security of being a white, middle class man in Bend, Oregon and the U.S. for granted.

By a curious coincidence, on my flight to Budapest I came across this short story by James Baldwin, reprinted in the Atlantic from 1960, that reminds me how much the sense of insecurity and fear expressed by this man is present in the lives of most African-Americans in the U.S. It served as a reminder of the need for American humility and a sense of how much work we all still have to do if we actually believe in "liberty and justice for all," not as a political slogan, but as an acknowledgment that we're all in this together, and that none of us is really free till all of us are free.

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Ukraine Trip: Day 1

8/1/2023

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Travel always seems to involve a journey not only from one location to another, but from the familiar to some version of the unknown...from our default mode to something that's outside of our day-to-day habitual way of being. And that challenges us but also offers us a chance to wake up a little from our habitual preoccupations....

I'm even more aware of this as I sit in the Seattle airport, waiting for a flight to Frankfurt, from which I'll fly to Budapest, in the hope of then taking a bus to Lviv in western Ukraine.

Yesterday's news reported that the Ukrainians have begun re-purposing cold-war anti-aircraft missiles and are now shooting them at cities in Russia itself, a hundred miles behind the battle lines. It remains to be seen how the Russians will retaliate---whether they now begin to intensify their bombing of Ukrainian cities that have so far experienced less drone and missile attacks.

In this past weekend, in (relatively) peaceful, comfortable Oregon, I was backpacking with my friend, George, in the Drift Creek Wilderness in the Coast Range, supposedly the largest stand of Old Growth trees in Oregon. We were almost the only people there and the stillness and beauty were breathtaking. I watched bright orange crayfish move slowly across the bottom of Drift Creek and heard owls calling in the night and early morning among the huge Doug Firs and Western Cedars.

Now, sitting in the airport I feel myself moving further and further from that relatively untouched landscape and life, toward a landscape and people that have been devastated by some of the worst that humans can do to each other (though I'm aware that there's a lot that goes on that I don't know about and that doesn't even get reported in the bubble I live in).

This movement, challenge, learning, and---hopefully---slight amount of waking up are what I hope to pay attention to and report back to you over the course of this trip. Some of you have asked me to let you know if I encounter nonprofit organizations that are doing important work on the ground in Ukraine so you can make donations, and I hope to be able to do that, too.

I hope you're all well and able to feel grateful for the (mostly) open and (mostly) peaceful country we live in.
More to come...

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Ukraine Blog

7/11/2023

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Over the month of August I'll try to record my impressions of what I encounter in Ukraine here, along with photos and video if my tech limitations allow.
Feel free to add any comments or questions at the bottom of each blog post.

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Summer, '23 Presence & Healing Workshop Saturday, July 22nd from 12:00-4:00pm, Pacific

7/10/2023

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I believe that in the 21st Century our health and well-being---and maybe our survival---depend on our learning "Energy Literacy," the ability to perceive and tend to energy in ourselves and in the world around us.

We can view illness, pain and conflict as problems. Or we can view them as a gift, as “the oil light on the dashboard” that tells us that something is out of balance and and is asking for our attention and tending.

The more we understand and are attuned to the energies of our bodies, hearts, minds, relationships, and communities, the earlier we can recognize imbalances and and the more skillfully we can act to correct them. When we learn to do this it empowers us to live more and more harmonious lives, regardless of what’s happening outside of us.

This workshop has two goals:

To help participants begin to learn, concretely and practically, how energy works and moves in human beings, and
To practice the skills of perceiving, nourishing and tending to our own and other people’s energies.

We'll spend time in discussion, practice, laughter, and community-building.

The workshop is taught by Mark Montgomery, Lic. Ac.
The workshop location will be 1192 McClellan Lane in Bend.

The workshop is experiential, with no previous experience required.
It is a prerequisite for the advanced energy literacy courses taught at BCH.

Cost of the workshop is on a sliding scale of $30 - $150.

For questions, call us at 541-322-9642 or email [email protected] .

To register, click on the button below.

Final Ukraine Entry: 9/5/23

August 11th, 2023

Tonight I'd like to just share with you some of the beauty of Lviv, which is considered one of the most beautiful, traditional European (vs. ugly modernist Soviet) cities of Ukraine.

And here's a painting that my unbelievably gifted friend, Lize Kruger did after the atrocities in Mariupol, simply entitled "Ukrainian Mother."

Good night, all.
Take good care of yourselves.
Thanks for your prayers.

Lviv - Day 5 (8/10)

Here's a picture of the coffins being carried into the church for the service.

Lviv - Day 2

Ukraine Day 7

Lviv - Day 1

Ukraine Trip - Day 4

Ukraine Trip: Day 1

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Tonight I'd like to just share with you some of the beauty of Lviv, which is considered one of the most beautiful, traditional European (vs. ugly modernist Soviet) cities of Ukraine.

And here's a painting that my unbelievably gifted friend, Lize Kruger did after the atrocities in Mariupol, simply entitled "Ukrainian Mother."

Good night, all.Take good care of yourselves. Thanks for your prayers.

Here's a picture of the coffins being carried into the church for the service.

Lviv - Day 1

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Good night, all.
Take good care of yourselves.
Thanks for your prayers.